18 12 / 2012
i am sorry i havent been here for a long time. i am sorry if people have messaged me and got no replies. there is a lot of stuff going on in my life right now. i’m probably not the best person to ask advice from anyways. i’m awful, at least thats what everyone says. general consensus says i’m useless. i don’t think i’m in a good place to run a positive space for people right now.
i can’t help you right now if i can’t help myself. im sorry. i’ll be back later, i think. i love you guys.
10 12 / 2012
I don’t know a lot about it, but I’ve been trying to read and learn about the men’s rights movement tonight. I have two questions.
What rights have men not always had? What rights are being threatened?
10 12 / 2012
I had no idea what it was gonna be like when I started this blog. Like, all the people I follow and reading your stories and all the people that send me messages. It’s really emotionally taxing (but in a good way!). Because I find myself like, sitting around hanging out and I think ‘oh I wonder how this person is doing’, or ‘I really want this person to feel better’.
I just really care about you guys so much I have a lot of emotions omg and not to mention if you’ve read my blog you all know more about me than most people in my life.
10 12 / 2012
Anonymous said: I'm back again... i only just started getting treated for my anxiety and depression a couple of months ago, a friend dragged me to the doctors because she was really worried about me and i was going fine for a little while and this holiday was meant to be a turning point to start over, it just feels like i'm meant to suffer. This year has been really tough on me emotionally and getting a lot of pressure from work and its been effecting my personal life. Now with HSV2 adding to the equation..tbc.
“cont.. i feel like my lifes going backwards and i’m stuck in this dark place. its like the universe doesn’t want me to be normal and keeps throwing curveballs at me. I know i should probably get my meds looked at again but i probably need to be dragged to the doctors again. I’ve recently been promoted at work and it carries a lot of extra responsibility i’m not sure i can handle right now but i dont want to refuse the offer and get stuck.. it seems like my only option to move forward”
Move forward WITH medication for your depression! If you can get to a doctors office it’s so important to go and get your meds adjusted. I would imagine that all this extra stress on your life is just too much to handle without help from a doctor, especially when you’re dealing with depression and anxiety.
I have had a history of depression (and self harm) as well and I hated feeling like a test subject going through medication after medication trying to find one that worked. But my doc and I finally found a mixture that was right for me and as long as you keep going I’ll bet you can find the right ones for you too! Taking care of your mental health is just as important as your physical so it’s super super super important to be getting back to see that doc ASAP! And I’ll hope that if you go to the doctor, it will help give you tools to deal with your new promotion and extra stresses. (Congrats on that promotion too! I know it’s extra stress but still, you got it cause of good work WHOOP!) If I were you, I would just try my best at the promotion at first. If you get to the point that you really cannot do it, you’ll know. But I don’t think it hurts to try!
I really think the best advice I can give is just that mental health professionals will probably help you more than I can! (although I’m still always here to talk..I’m just no doctor!) But I frickin hate going to the dang doctor and I frickin hate shoveling antidepressants but if/when you really need them, there is nothing wrong with it.
I remember reading something a long time ago that said, ‘If I keep piling weights onto your shoulders, no matter how much you want to stand, you will fall.’ Those weights are all the stressful things in your life! And the way to keep standing with all the weights is to gain things that help you cope, like friends, an internet community, hobby, or help from a doctor. I’m probably not remembering the metaphor perfectly, but it was something like a justice scale, with stress on one side and coping mechanisms on the other. You’ve got to add ways to cope or the stress side will topple the whole thing over.
As always keep in touch and I really want to jump through the screen and give you a big hug :( just keep moving forward!
10 12 / 2012
"Anything that gets your blood racing is probably worth doing."